When mum first told me this story, I thought it was because you were ashamed to have a kid like me. I find it is harder most because I feel I cannot change how the world works. Now my boys hand me the nails and screws. I've always told myself you don't have to be blood to be family. I know you were still there for me whenever I felt, I am a grown up boy now and I dont need you.
Thank you for telling me that a lot of men in the world are not worthy of my love and attention; and thank you for meaning it. Even though I snapped at you when you suggested I wear less makeup, I knew it was cause you saw my true beauty. It is the letters through which we can share all our feelings. You were there with me, in some way. Ladies, this work is not easy.
I promise that every time you read this letter, you will be proud of the person your daughter picked! I am so strong, I am so incredibly strong. As I dated her, I realized she has many good qualities that come from you and I want you to know that the bond between us will not change the love between you and her. I wanted to introduce my future spouse to you, and I wanted you to meet my online friends and it sucks. And it does take so much courage to go against the grain of what society and many times our own heart is telling us to do. I also wouldn't have a baby sister who looks up to me and always wants to know what i'm doing. I recently realized the true depth and breadth of your presence. I need to hear your voice and to see you for many years to come.
To tell him, he had made me the strong person that everyone had accepted. Now I know why my kids want to hold my hand, and why they like to sneak into my bed at night and sleep with their heads on my arm. Life is never a predictable journey and we all face many different experiences. And he counted it among the things he loves about me. You will always be my best friend, my greatest mentor, my motivation and my deepest roots.
Praise God for the healing process, and how it frees our spirits. One of our online mentors would love to hear about it and journey with you. The Impact I could not complete my letter in one sitting. My peers and classmates brought up death of a loved one and how that affects others. How many times did you lie on the floor and let us stand in the palms of your hands, lifting us high in the sky? I promise that your daughter will thrive in direct proportion to the words you speak verbal and written into her life.
I still walk through life with that same amount of joy. I encourage you to do the same because a decision not to could be even more detrimental to the relationship. I had never been spoken to like that by an adult, someone who was supposed to be a parental figure to me. Thank you for believing, for hoping, for smiling, for laughing, for teaching, for loving, for supporting, for showing, and for prying. I can't believe someone like you, a man who didn't even go to college, made living for us easy. Failing which the letter will make a wrong impression about you among the receivers of your letters.
Without you, I would not be the woman that I am today. I forgive you, and I hope that you can forgive me. I guess you can say you've never stopped teaching me. A letter might be the gateway to a relationship with your father. Although, he had let me graduate before he passed away, he never really gave me a chance to atone for all my deficits and thank him from the bottom of my heart. But I always saw your face. You deleted me off facebook and I sent you a message explaining this will be the last time, that im not reaching out to you anymore because every single time i have its ended in disappointment.
My dad started a tradition a number of years ago where he creates a one-of-a-kind birthday card for all of us girls by using a template on his computer you can do the same thing by going online and doing some exploring. I know you will always be her true king and no matter what happens, no one can take your place in her heart. And they love to work with me just as I did with you. He explained to me that something wasn't right with you. I specifically apologize for: You may feel that you have not done anything wrong.
We drove by it on vacation and showed our kids what Grandpa had made for us. Nevermind the fact that you knew i was out there and you knew when i turned 18 and you still never reached out to me. I hope that I can give your brand of patient, enthusiastic encouragement to my own kids. I know you that you are my Father but you are also a human being, on your own path and learning your own lessons. You may be her dad, and we are not linked by blood, but I want to be your doting son too.